Cancer Hair

Hey guys if you read my "About Me" you will already be aware that I was diagnosed with Lyphoma cancer over the summer.  It's only stage 2 and see it as an opportunity to change certain aspects of my life.  Slowly I've strayed from the deep center of who I originally was.  Yes, over the years I have developed more self-confidence and motivation, but what I really forgot was how deep I can plunge on paper.  Surely you must think there is something inside of you that pushes you forward.  Theres an unending position that needs to be occupied; shoes that need to be filled in times of ambiguous meaning.  Or simply, we need to be what we are deep inside sometimes, no matter how many interpretations we will find of the same concept.

I myself have found that when I have the feeling of Love, I can't help but express it in different ways. Just I haven't used one expression in a while, one that I love, writing.  I started this blog so I can start "writing" and show whoever cares to take the time to read my love for the art.  There are times when I'm surfing the internet for hours and dreaming of having or doing things that I see other people doing or having on youtube and such, when I forget I can do those things or have those things.  Theres no fine line that seperates whats a dream and whats reality.  They all say just go for it and you just may get it.  I don't see it that way, I feel that if I feel I "need" it in some sort or fashion then why not tell myself, "Jon, its yours and no one will keep it from you."  You see, even though I have cancer I won't fret; because when I have trust in my doctor I push myself one inch.  When I believe I can get people noticing my company 2nDerma, I get another. Finally when I go do things I've always been scared to do, I have already traveled a mile.

Cancer is the gateway to alternative thinking my friends.  Don't get lost in what is ahead of you but battle what is real and what is current.  There is no need to stress, it only shortens our already short lives.  Just the other day I noticed my hair started falling out.  Most people take this hard, but not I.  I joke about it all the time, "Hey you want some hair"?  I would pull a chunk out and gross out the victim.  I did what my girlfriend's dad told me; cut the hair so I feel in control not the cancer.  So now I have extremely short hair, or what I like to call, "Cancer Hair".  Here's another thing I noticed, people come together during times of hardship and support those who are unfortunate.  It makes me feel fortunate when that happens, like family and friends are a web of love.  Here's what I want you to do today, go out and show love to someone going through a hard time.  If there's no one you know of who's feeling under then do the same for someone you normally don't express such feelings towards.  I can't find a better reason to help someone than knowing their life isn't smooth sailing.